I’ve heard that
“the hardest thing
you’ll ever have to do
is watch someone you love
love someone else.”

I thought I understood it.
I thought I had felt it.

But I didn’t understand
how hard it actually is
until I was staring at him
under a star illuminated sky
at 4 am
and I could see the pain laced
on his facial features
his hands on his head
as he talked about all the things
wrong with his relationship
and I didn’t understand
how it felt until
I heard the hurt in his voice
as he repeated “this is so unfair”
again and again and again.

Well, life is unfair
isn’t it?
The boy I love
loves another
who treats him
as he once treated me.

They say I’m such a good friend
for what I did
but Jesus Christ,
I didn’t want to just be his friend.


the real definition of pain (via fuckyouveryveryymuch)

I saw the picture of her wearing your sweatshirt
and you wearing the sweatshirt I just gave back after four years and
I wonder if she knows
that I wore that sweatshirt when I saw you after 3 months
and cried in the back of the car because I missed you so much
I wonder if she knows
about the time that you slowly took that sweatshirt off of me and
kissed me everywhere I’m sure you’ve already kissed her
I wonder if she knows
how you loved it when I wore nothing but that sweatshirt.

Even though you’ve washed every bit of me out since
I know a piece of me is still there and
I wish I could tell you she’ll never love you like I did
and I wish I could tell her not to even try but
who am I to judge?
I’m not a part of your life anymore and
you’ve made it clear I never will be again but
I hope maybe you thought of me when she
pulled that sweatshirt over her head and you
finally saw she wasn’t me.


on seeing a picture of you with her | a.m.t. (via sweet-red-wine)
I hope you look for me in everyone else and panic when you realize that they’ll never be exactly the same.
Ten words story: you lost me. (via maisjetaime)

hunnnnie:

I want someone to really want me. Make a big deal about me, tell me I’m on your mind way too fucking much but you kinda like it. Make it completely obvious that I’m the person you want. Tell me you can’t wait to see me; show me how you feel so I can feel it too.
Make me feel something I’ve never felt before. Tell your friends about me & I’ll tell them about how you make butterflies swam my stomach. Want me as much as I want you.

Life starts all over again when it gets crisp in the fall.
F. Scott Fitzgerald (The Great Gatsby)

(Source: girlinlondon)

porkskins:

when something extremely funny happens i can guarantee you im that one friend who keeps laughing even though everybody stopped 15 minutes ago